What I will remember...

I'm at a loss of words right now.  My heart is aching.  I have spent the last 3 days bursting into tears for no apparent reason. I have had to have conversations with my children over the last few days that I shouldn't be having with them at their tender ages.  I have to teach my children that being brave is going forward when you are scared.  "It's not bravery if you're not scared".  I dropped my kids off at school this morning and cried all the way to work.  For the first time in my life, I'd rather be a coward.  I want to be a coward.  I want to hide my children in GoodTwinLand forever.  I know I owe them better than that. So I mustered every last ounce of courage I have and I sent my children to school today.

Again, I have no words.  Only prayers.  And my promise that this is what I will remember:

Charlotte Bacon, 2/22/06, female (age 6)
Daniel Barden, 9/25/05, male (age 7)
Olivia Engel, 7/18/06, female (age 6)
Josephine Gay, 12/11/05, female (age 7)
Ana M. Marquez-Greene, 04/04/06, female (age 6)
Dylan Hockley, 03/08/06, male (age 6)
Madeleine F. Hsu, 07/10/06, female (age 6)
Catherine V. Hubbard, 06/08/06, female (age 6)
Chase Kowalski, 10/31/05, male (age 7)
Jesse Lewis, 06/30/06, male (age 6)
James Mattioli, 03/22/06, male (age 6)
Grace McDonnell, 11/04/05, female (age 7)
Emilie Parker, 05/12/06, female (age 6)
Jack Pinto, 05/06/06, male (age 6)

Noah Pozner, 11/20/06, male (age 6)

Caroline Previdi, 09/07/06, female (age 6)

Jessica Rekos, 05/10/06, female (age 6)

Avielle Richman, 10/17/06, female (age 6)

Benjamin Wheeler, 9/12/06, male (age 6)

Allison N. Wyatt, 07/03/06, female (age 6)

Rachel Davino, 7/17/83, female (age 29)

Dawn Hochsprung, 06/28/65, female (age 47)

Anne Marie Murphy, 07/25/60, female (age 52)

Lauren Russeau, 1982, female (age 29)

Mary Sherlach, 02/11/56, female (age 56)

Victoria Soto, 11/04/85, female (age 27)

Just as I remember:

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,266466,00.html

And I remember:

http://acolumbinesite.com/victim/memoriam.html